Recently, I came to realize that I am being drawn toward other gods. I understand this is quite normal and I welcome it. My journey is as much about my own evolution as it is about the lessons I will learn along my way. Loki has definitely made his mark upon me — he has opened my eyes to see that being true to myself in all ways is the most healthy way to grow. It hasn’t always been easy for me to simply be myself. People can be judgmental and harsh without even knowing you, but as Loki so brilliantly pointed out, “Fuck ’em!”
The ability to let my walls down, open myself to others and explore deeper into the darkest corners of my being has become a vital aspect of my journey within. Loki pops up along the way, often offering his opinion on whatever madness is swimming around in my brain, and he has also led me to understand that there is so much I can learn from his family. Each child is a part of Loki, each having their own distinct lessons to teach, but all leading back to the whole of the family.
Years ago, I began to explore Hel, then later, once I awakened as Wolf, I felt a deep connection with Fenrir, which ultimately led me to Loki. I’ve had dreams in which Odin and Skadi have appeared, so I also feel drawn to them as well. As of late, I have been exploring the serpent/dragon aspects, specifically Apep (Egyptian) and Jörmungandr. I have not previously had such a strong interest in seeking out the serpent/dragon, yet I am clearly called to hear their messages!
I have been involved with both online and real-life communities over the past 25 years. If there is one lesson I have learned in dealing with them, it is that drama and nonsense leads to a break in unity, which them leads to the inevitable failure of the work at hand. In those years, I’ve learned many things, and the one thing that still holds true, unfortunately, is that there will always be those who wish to create a divide. One evening recently while I was contemplating whether or not I should continue being part of a specific group that had become dysfunctional, I heard the wisdom of Loki streaming through my mind. He made clear his reasoning, which was that what was important in the situation had nothing to do with whether I remained a member of the group or not, but that I continue MY journey and let those with less than honorable intentions stay weak and depraved of the gifts of the gods. Loki is right, not just for me, but for all of us. It is important that we remember our personal goals, our journey, and our work with the gods. Whether those we meet along the way become Brothers and Sisters, or undefined in our lives depends on how we handle such situations. The path in which we have started walking is not an easy one. There will be persecution, ignorance, and obstacles along the way, but if we carry on, our goals in sight and our relationships with the gods as our focus, we will persevere.
Cut away those things which would keep you from reaching your goals. We have much to learn and much to explore. The gods await us!